「 love was in the air, 2:06 PM 」

Foul mood again.Sucks. Don't know why but sigh~ i've been very short tempered these 2 days. I've been blaming it on my colleagues and my new job but guess that's not the way to continue. I think it's all just in the mind. Maybe i can psycho myself into thinking that my job's not that bad? hahaz~ Wish me luck!

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「 love was in the air, 9:34 PM 」

Bad mood again. Sighz~ Was just saying yesterday that my job's great and the people's great too but looks like i have to change my word. Terrence was pissing me off really quite badly today. He's so darn slack till i really dunno what to say about him. In a sales orientated job, i think it's nice if we help one another but it's also neccessary to maintain a certain healthy competition. And terrence's always trying to take advantage of either kenneth or i. He doesn't really have much to benefit from me cos i simply can't be bothered with him. Sighz~ then cass was in a bad mood today. I dunno y either. Maybe she's pissed off with me being too slack? Sighz~ Don't care larh. Hope that tomorrow will be better.

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Yay!!! I got myself a new job. The pay's not excellent but after having tried out the job for 2 days, i'm totally in love with it. I can have flexible hours and the people there are all so nice and the most important thing of all, i can actually still continue with teaching tuition! It's actually a sales job but what i'm selling is actually membership cards for the heeren shops instead of a proper product like what most people do.
Yesterday was my first day there so didn't really manage to clinch a lot of deals but my colleagues were telling me it's good enough.At least i didn't end my day with a zero. =) My colleagues were very nice too. Today they helped me sell 4 cards and added all of that into my sales record. Wah... really in love with them now! Then after their shift, one of them still go and buy coffee for me because she knew that i haven't had dinner. So sweet! =)Another bunch of colleagues were great people too. Though they didnt really help me sell cards because they need the commission for themselves, they were very willing to guide me along and after our work, all of us actually went for supper and i had a great laugh. Hahaz~ they were really funny people! And sometimes if their sales don't hit the target for commission, they will actually pass their customers to me or actually help me get people. Really quite touched by their actions.
I used to think that sales jobs are actually very lousy jobs cos you have to look at people's black faces and face rejections all day but after i accepted this job, i've seen a totally different side of sales jobs. Yes, it may be a tough job but the colleagues will always be very willing to help one another and you actually get to learn a lot too. You can learn how to present yourself better. Hahaz~ Had such great fun! I'm going back again tomorrow. Hope i'll enjoy it as much as i have over the past 2 days! =)

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「 love was in the air, 10:27 PM 」

Hmm... something's wrong. I smell a rat. Qingli just told me to go down to west coast next week for tkd training. She said Gerrick kept asking about me. Wonder if it'sreally true that my tkd sirs actually still remember my name or was it just one of her tricks to make me accompany her down to west coast. I don't really mind going. West coast training seems fun but it's at the WEST COAST!!! That's like the other end of the world for me. Especially for people like me who likes to keep myself to nice comfy and familiar places like town, my housing estate area and those areas close to my place. Sighz~ and i'm supposed to meet an old friend next week! And now i'm gonna have to cancel it. Sighz~ but never mind larh... let's try out training at west coast. It might be something i'll never regret?

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Went orchard today to do some shopping and also brought my younger sister to 77th street to pierce her ears.Wonder what her ears are feeling like now? When i pierced my ears the last time, i wasn't as nervous as her. In fact, it took me less than 5 minutes to decide that i should go against what my mum suggested and go pierce my ears at some "funny" place like 77th street. Hahaz~ Me defiant kid ya? Anyway, today my sister looked like she was feeling really nervous about piercing her ears. Hahaz~ i felt good looking at her nervous face though... So funny!
Btw, one of my friends suddenly just went back to Indonesia without telling anyone of us. I'm honestly quite worried. Hope it's not because something happened to her family back in Indonesia. The last time she wanted to rush back to Indonesia because her grandma just had a stroke. Hope this time it's nothing bad. Just emailed her. Wondering if she'll reply... Hope she does. The whole bunch of friends who usually hang out with her all know nothing about her going back to Indonesia. Sighz~ i admire her for being extremely independent but she's a little too independent for her own good right? I used to be like that too until i realised that sometimes, things are much easier to handle when you share the burden with your friends and family. Hope she'll tell us what actually made her decide not to tell us.
I went for a ktv singing session with my friends today too. It's been quite long since i last sang so much and had so much fun at a ktv singing session. I'm now half mute... hahaz~ scream into the microphone quite a bit. Though i'm losing my voice, I'm still happy.Hahaz~ felt so good to just simply not care whether you go out of tune or not and sing till you go mad... hahaz~ Well, me shall go drink more water so that my voice will come back to me soon. hahaz~ tataz~~

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「 love was in the air, 9:14 PM 」

Received the matriculation from both ntu and smu today. I'm really quite excited to be accepted by smu but sadly, at the same time i also feel guilty towards ntu.They really treat us future students as treasures... Feel very honoured. the way they treat us is really good and it really made me feel good but still, i've decided to accept smu instead of ntu because of the way it has protrayed itself. It seems like a more dynamic uni and a very happening place. Sounds fun! =) Even though i've already accepted smu, i'm still very afraid... Is it cos i'm going to move into a new phrase in life? I've heard that students in smu can be totally empty upstairs. Sighz~ wonder if i'll end up like that. Hope not. Well,guess since i've already paid the $300 deposit, i should not still hesitate and think too much. Hahaz~ Wish me luck k?? =)

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「 love was in the air, 4:35 PM 」

*Burp*
Opps... a bit impolite ya? Sorry but i just can't help myself. I feel almost as if i'm dying to ward off some vampire or something. I smell so GARLIC. In fact, for all i know, i may even look like garlic, with all the white skin and the distinct cloves. Sighz~ I've already drunk 3 glasses of water but the garlic breath is still there. If anyone needs to ward off some vampire, please feel free to inform me. I'll be more than willing to help. But, of cos, if the garlic breath decides to dissappear infront of the vamp den er... too bad ya? Hahaz~ anyone has any smart ways to get rid of garlic breath? i really don't want to turn up at my student's house and give him tuition with garlic breath. He might just die in front of me, u know?
*Burp*
Sigh~ Think i better go get myself another glass of water before even the computer dies on me cos of my garlic breath.

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「 love was in the air, 7:08 PM 」

What the heck is she thinking? Just settle for NUSarts because SMU didn't call her?? hello? You're the one who needed a reply by the 31st so jolly well pick up that bloody phone and call SMU! Confirm that you've been rejected by SMU first before you actually place a $500 deposit with NUS!!! It's $500! What if today you get home and you realise that SMU just sent you a pretty letter saying congratulations??? Take it that you've just gone a shopping spree and spent $500?
Seriously, I really don't know what is wrong with her. Gets bullied all the time. This time it's her future at stake!!! Why can't she just be more pro-active? Do i have to make the call for her or what? Why isn't she like the least bit worried? Sucks! She just messaged. Said she's not in the mood to call up SMU this week cos this week has been a horrible week for her but HEY, LADY! Your mood should never affect you in your decision making. Especially when it's a decision that will affect your whole life! Why is she so darn bloody fucking soft? Gets pushed around all the time. Sighz~ if i didn't message, i'd have happily thought that you've made a wise decision.
Sigh~ since the moment i got to know her, i knew that she's very soft-spoken and everything but still...it's a bit too much to just let the $500 slip away like that right? Never Mind. I'll just let her do things her way. Do whatever she wants larh...

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Why do i always end up looking like i'm extremely desperate for a guy when actually i'm NOT!??!!! It really sucks. It's not like i hate Jan. I just don't feel anything for him.And so why should i continue to lead him on when he actually thinks of me as someone who is a possible candidate of "more than friends" friend? And what the heck is wrong with guanhong?? Do i seem like i desperately need a boyfriend?? Just because i've discussed my love problems with him doesn't mean that he needs to play matchmaker you know?

I'm not desperate for love!!!! WHAT'S WRONG WITH BEING SINGLE?!?!?!? I enjoy being single!!! I think it's nice being single. Yes,i know! i'm at an age whereby i'm suitable for getting a boyfriend and bringing him home to see mama BUT as much as being attached is nice and great, being single is too! You get to go out with your girlfriends, wreak havoc, talk about cute guys in public, flirt with guys in public without having to worry if someone might be shoooting arrows at your back... so i absolutely enjoy being single! I'm not saying that it's not nice to be attached. I mean,it's nice when you can actually bully someone and make him go get your food while u just sit at the table waiting to be served by him... it's also nice to have someone to talk to and officially disturb at 3/4 am in the morning when you're in a bad mood for God knows what reason.BUT,i simply don't see the need to act desperate for a boyfriend just because i'm of an "attachable" age... People, it's perfectly LEGAL to be single,you know?

I know some people think that i'm not acting desperate(or trying very hard not to seem desperate to certain people) simply because i have a phobia of being attached. Yes, i don't deny that. I simply do not have enough faith in BGRs... I think they are very weak and sometimes, love isn't even a factor for 2 person to get together. How ridiculous can that be? Shouldn't all LOVE relationships be based on LOVE and care? Since when did looks and $$ come into the picture. Ok, maybe i shouldn't sound so noble. I'm afterall VERY concerned about a guy's $$ n SLIGHTLY concerned about how a guy looks. But that's because i want to make sure that there can be a future between the guy and i. And, why should i compromise on my standards just because i'm now of an "attachable" age?

Ok, after yakking for so long, i still haven't explained why i seem desperate when i'm not. Well, i don't mind messaging guys i don't know and i don't mind going out with these guys too. But i'm not desperate, serious. I'm just being plain friendly. What's wrong with having more friends? Sighz~ ok, maybe i do seem desperate sometimes BUT i'm NOT!!! Sighz, people, just accept me as who i am and not whether i'm attached or not alright??

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